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Saturday, 28 February 2015

Nowhere to Run


















Nowhere to run
Nowhere to run
Now the dice has been cast
Now the cards has been played
Now the tide has turned
I will ply my guitar
Until I can play it no more
I will hum again
Your song
Again and again
Effort like in my mind,
Buildings are built and fall
Government’s may come and go
More and more
May join the queue
And it may feel
Further and further
To the front
Who knows what?
Who cares about anything?
But life goes on
Life moves onwards,

My friend.





Friday, 27 February 2015

Another Sunny Day

















The next poem is a little older 1995 according to my notes and clearly was wrote
knowing me in the middle of Longford Park watching the events below happen.

Enjoy

Andy


On another sunny day
I sit in another crowded
busy park
relaxing after another
heart breaking day at work
in the shadows of the bushes
far away from home
far away from the sun
but relaxing
enjoying the summer
and enjoying life
picking up a pen
from within the darkest reaches
of my endless seeming pockets
and begin to write
describing the hotness of the weather
describing the people sitting nearby
passing through
or walking far away in the distance
describing life
and some of the mysteries
surroundering and covering it
and the people who chatter within it
writing for fun
writing as a way to relax
playing the observer
watching the people
watching things.

I see a couple
arguing
over some major
or something minir
(take your pick)
i can hear them
cursing each other
with every swear word
under the sun,
He is calling her a slag

she is calling him a alocholic

once upon a time
i would have took sides mentually
tried to pick who was right
and wrong

did he drink heavy
because of her constant sleeping around

did she sleep around
because of his over the top dancing?

Once upon a time
i would have pondered this
until i was blue i the face.

Once I would have worked out my answer
during the course of this poem
bouncing the answer in my knee
weighing up both sides
until I had finished arguing with
myself.

Once.

Once.

Now I am older
I have learned to explore things in
a complete different manner

Have learned to look at things
from a different angle.

Now I wouldn't neccasry take sides
and try to decide
who is and isn't right.

Now I am content to write
and describe
and try and make the characters
seem alive

and real

I still write emotional poems

things that concern me

frighten me

horrify me

but now as i try to understnad
i try to paint a balanced picture

no mattter when in summer

or winter.







Thursday, 26 February 2015

Rain



















A shorter poem this time wrote all the way back in 1993
and one of the earliest ones in this archive of poetry.

Judging by the tone, i was in a depressed state of mind
possibly by the fact i wasn't seeing Sian who i would have
been seeing back then that weekend.

Andy




I write down what I see
I dream what i can't see
it's raining
it's pouring
the old man is snoozing
God, what a fucking awful day
why doesn't it stop raining?
it has seemed like it has
rained forever

Manchester

Typical Manchester.

Manchester.

Rain, rain and rain.

Rainy thoughts for a rain day

Random thoughts for an random town

ah, home

home, sweet town.

I moan about you

bu you are my hometown.

My hometown.



Wednesday, 25 February 2015

Nightmares by the sea III


















There is other songs my old band did, which I'll share another day but here
is the last for the moment..




Visions of a untold age
Feelings
Passing
Clouds of a distant day.

And I thought of you..

Passing thoughts
Emotions
Hurts
Things I can’t have.

And I thought of you.

Face In the crowd
Beautiful.
Perfect I can never have.

And I thought of you

Brief, flashing images
Something
Everything
Things I cannot forget

And I thought of you

I tried to find a way
Love
Lost
A way

And I wondered…

Thoughts out of control
Raging
Violent
Things I can’t understand

And I wondered why.

Endless nightmares
Painful
Hurtful

Images I can’t forget

And I wondered why

Crying out in pain
Calling out for  a name

As I walked away.

Tuesday, 24 February 2015

Nightmares by the sea II



















Here is Part 2 of the same sequence.

This one rips off Joy division a little.




Have you ever felt
This feeling
Deep and dark
Inside?

Have you ever
Felt what is means
To be soo alive?

I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

Have you even
Felt how it
Feels to love
So deep inside?

Have you ever
Understood
What it means
To be lonely?

I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

You gave
Me nightmares
By the sea

I gave you
Feelings
I couldn’t
Escape from.

I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

You have me
Love
By the sea

I gave you feelings
Nobody else
Could see.

I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

I tried to listen
You tried to understand
Feeling both of us felt
.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

I tried
I tried too much
I tried
I tried too much.

I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

I understood
I understood too much.
Embracing these nightmares by the sea.

I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.
I tried to get to you.

Monday, 23 February 2015

Nightmares by the sea I



















This next one isn't dated but is around May 1993 I reckon and is the first 
of a series of posts of lyrics if you call it them of a band I actually fronted
for a while called The Vampires which played a pretty damn heavy
goth kind of thing.

We were terrible on the few gigs we did, but it was good fun. 

Wish I had some recordings but this first lyric and the other several
to follow will give you a clue of what we were like I hope.

Enjoy Andy



A dark cloud looms across this dream
Something missing, something wrong
Something quite, quite not right
Not here, not right.

And I thought of you..

Passing dreams
Feelings
Hurts
Dislike
Things I can never have

And I thought of you.

Girl in the crowd
Lovely
Interesting
Something I can never face

And I thought of you..

Brief, flashig lives
Passing
Drifting through
Things I can’t understand

And I remembered.

I tried to find a way
Love
Case aside
A way to explain this.

And I remembered.

Out of control
Raging
Violent
Things I couldn’t understand.

And I wondered why.

Wishing I hadn’t walked away

As I slowly walked way

Wishing

As I slowly walked away

Hopinmg

As I slowly walked away

Wondering

As I slowly walked away

Pondering

As I slowly walked away

As I slowly walked away
As I slowly walked away
As I slowly walked away
As I slowly walked away
As I slowly walked away
As I slowly walked away..

Sunday, 22 February 2015

Dropped the Dagger














I’ve dropped the dagger
And picked up the paintbrush.

I’ve traded hatred
For happiness.

I’ve dumped sadness
For sunshine.

Found a way
To believe in myself.

Stopped self
Doubting myself.

Found a way
To live.

Breathe.

My poetry as my life
Will change.

Pitying myself in places
But screaming in others

But it shall retain
A will to live

And never slip away.



(Wrote 13/06/1998 just before I left work to go to university and by the look of things likely a commentary about how unsettled I had been with my life at that stage).